Pain

Pain.  Not mental anguish, but actual physical pain.  Any woman who has ever given birth knows it, as does anyone with a chronic illness.  For the past three weeks, I have creeped between bed and bathroom in varying degrees of physical hell.  I showered only when my own smell got too overpowering for my own nostrils, didn't drive, didn't fetch my daily Starbucks, let the grey roots of my hair take over my "do."  Didn't even listen to music.  Now, as I'm finally emerging from the ordeal and life appears to be returning to normal, I can focus enough to see a little brightness where I thought there was only dark.  Two good side effects from being bedridden?  I didn't spend any money.  I lost at least ten pounds.  And I found a playlist.  Here it is.

1. "Eat Me Up Alive"- Ratt
2. "Torture Me"- Red Hot Chili Peppers
3. "Bleed It Out"- Linkin Park
4. "Bend and Break"- Keane
5. "Permanent Hurt"- John Hiatt
6. "The First Cut is the Deepest"- Cat Stevens
7. "Nerve Damage"- Lifehouse
8. "Blood and Fire"- Indigo Girls
9. "Kill the Pain"- INXS
10. "The Hurting Time"- Annie Lennox
11. "Black and Blue Again"- Dave Gahan
12. "I'm Burning"- Jesus Jones
13. "I Don't Feel So Well"- Vienna Teng
14. "King of Pain"- The Police
15. "Everything Kills You"- Echo & the Bunnymen
16. "Burnin' Up"- Jonas Brothers
17. "Bruised But Not Broken"- Joss Stone
18. "Falling to Pieces"- Faith No More
19. "Breaking Inside"- Shinedown
20. "Harder to Breathe"- Maroon 5
21. "Beat Me Up"- Allison Iraheta